Friday, October 12, 2012




October 4, 2012

THE  INTERCESSOR  AND  THE   BIBLE

Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers. - Psalm 1:1-3

Today my dad went off to the bay area to fix up the house. This would be another time when I could not go with im because of my health situation. This was now the fourth day not going outside. Four days without fresh air and sunlight and I begin to realize how much I took going outside for granted when I was well. I went out so often to go for walks but right now that would be such a luxury. I felt pretty discouraged throught the day. The long awaited package came today but it was incomplete. Only two out of the three items came. They said five to seven days which should have been last Friday or Monday of this week, it ended up taking eleven days but I am still missing a piece but the major portion is here. God taught me about my priorities this week when my girlfriend sent me mooncake on Monday and my child sent me a letter on Tuesday but I only was wanting today's package. I care more about things than people and these are two of the most important people right now in my life and my heart was so off when I did not value their love. The love of God is like a mirror and I see how much I fall short.



"The life of a Christian is all about passion. Nothing is more powerful than when the Holy Spirit reveals the Son of God through the words of Scripture. Like the disciples on the road to Emmaus, every heart began to burn when God revealed Himself. When He unveils Himself and we have understanding of what He is saying, passion is the result. - Wesley and Stacey Campbell, Praying the Bible: The Pathway to Spirituality"

This is so true. Sometimes I take hold of a promise or a truth that I read so many times but the Holy Spirit brings it into clear focus and the result is passion. I take God at His word and believe Him in what He says about the future, the past, and who I am. It has been a while since I have felt any passion. There has been a lot of dryness and emptiness.


"Let's look at several important benefits of praying the Word of God:
•           You align yourself spiritually with God. You begin to see things from a biblical standpoint and get a heavenly perspective of life instead of the world's system. "Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things" (Colossians 3:2).
 •          You begin to pray things you have never prayed before. Because you are praying the Bible, you pray with fresh strength from God. You can pray for the church with biblical apostolic prayers that are thorough and effective. For instance, "I ptay also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope
to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints" (Ephesians 1:18).
•           You receive authority from God. Ptaying the Bible in the power of the Holy Spirit gives you a confidence and an authority because you are praying His truth, His will, and His ways. You have more confidence in your prayers when you know that you are praying God's Word. "This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us — whatever we ask — we know that we have what we asked of him" (1 John 5:14-15). You defeat the works of the Enemy. Praying the biblical directives defeats the Enemy because you are praying the very purposes of God. Satan is the father of lies, and when you pray the Bible, you pray God's trurh. "'Is not my word like fire,' declares the Lord, 'and like a hammer that breaks a rock in pieces?'" (Jeremiah 23:29). You are taken to a higher dimension in God. You are led to places in God that you would never discover otherwise. His truth permeates your life dramatically. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts" (Isaiah 55:9). You become more passionate for God. The Holy Spirit reveals the Son of God through the words of the Bible, creating a passion for Jesus. "Do not let your heart envy sinners, but always be zealous for the fear of the Lord" (Proverbs 23:17)."

Praying and meditating Scripture is a powerful devotional tool. I confess I don’t do it enough. The author has listed many benefits here. I especially like to study and pray through the prayers of the Bible especially the Psalms. They are full of raw honesty and closeness with God. I also like to pray Paul’s prayers for the church. Being in the Word of God helps counter the culture’s ideas and all the negative thoughts I have sometimes. Most recently, I try to cling to the promises of God and pray them out loud or in journals.


How do we know the will of God if we are not in the Word of God. One very interesting thing is to read through the prayer requests online. I read some that make you really wonder. One woman wanted to ask prayer to win the lottery. There is the question of if one hundred Christians pray to win the lottery, who does God answer? One other woman asked God to bless the relationship with her live in boyfriend and father of her child. We have the option to post comments to prayer requests and there was a man who totally rebuked her for having a live in boyfriend and shared a lot of truth but did not do so in love. The truth of the matter is that many people have a shallow relationship with God and have no idea that having sex outside of the marriage relationship is sin. It is abundantly clear in the entire Bible that having sex outside of marriage is a sin but many Christians just don't know. It is so important to be in the word of God to know the will of God.

"The Word of God is a seed that grows. When God speaks His Word, He is sprinkling seeds that will bring forth His goodness and His purpose. The Word of God always produces, never returns void. Therefore, when you and I, guided by the Holy Spirit, speak God's Word into situations, we are sowing the promises of God, the immutable truth of God's Word. Then He will cause life everlasting to spring forth from those seeds."

Prayer:
Father, I am reminded today about the importance and value of Your word. My life right now lacks passion and purpose and I need to be filled with Your presence and power. It is hard right now to believe Your words sometimes and especially Your promises. I have a number of impossible situations where I need You to come through and right now Your Word just does does not seem true to me. I feel so numb to Your Word and I have so much doubt. Please help me regain a passion for You and a passion for Your truth.

Thursday, October 11, 2012


October 3, 2012

INTERCESSOR  AND  STILLNESS
Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth. -Psalm 46:10


It turns out that I could not make it today to fellowship. I had posted a prayer request first when I woke up that I hoped to be well enough so that I can make it to Bible study, but time passed and I could not make it. I missed my first Bible study. The older women were wondering where I was. They made my favorite dishes. I had asked my dad to change it from the house to the church that way I come come in by wheelchair but my dad did not want to make a mess at the church and he wants to give Amy the opportunity to open her home and serve. The distance from street to the kitchen where the home fellowship is at is over thirty feet to which a normal person can do without any problem. I can only walk about 15 feet before I need a break. Plus, cement and hard wood are very tough to walk on for some reason. This is now the third day without sunshine or fresh air. I have been very discouraged today. This season is all about waiting on God and being very disappointed in the process.



"There is great power in stillness. "In quietness and confidence shall be your strength." To receive grear blessing from the Holy Spirit, there must be great prepararion. For me the Atlantic voyage was a time of sleep and seasickness and seeing God in a brand-new way. It was a quiet time — a time of prayer and Bible memorization, a time of dependence, a time of adventure, a time of togetherness, a time of waiting, a time of endurance, and a time of stepping into the unknown. The ocean is truly a beautiful place, and God speaks in a special way out at sea when all other thoughts are lost in His majesty and might. "The earth is the Lord's, and everything in it, the world, and all who live in it; for he founded it upon the seas and established it upon the waters" (Psalm 24:1-2).
You don't have to live on a ship to learn the lessons of stillness. It's impottant for all of us to ask, How can I learn to wait on God and hear His voice? How do I learn to be still and quiet even though my world is so busy? Let's explore how to wait upon God, soak in His presence, and find ways to cultivate a listening ear to hear God's voice."

This idea of soaking in God's presence is one she develops much later on, but it is so hard to really find God. I mean, I have had a lot of quiet time. 3:00 A.M. quiet time, and sleeping downstairs and many times not being able to sleep has given me a lot of time to be silent and still as well as share my worries and frustrations with God. In all, I continue to struggle to see God in the midst of my difficulties. In silence, I do not hear His still small voice.


"In waiting, the very highest direction for your life can come forth daily. What may look like a loss of time is really only time multiplied on your behalf. God is able to do things with more efficiency than you are. The unnecessary falls away, and the very purposes and wisdom of God come forth in purity, holiness, and power. It isn't easy to integrate the discipline of waiting into your lifestyle, but when you embrace this, it will bring tremendous rewards. It should become a way of life to those who want to be used greatly by God. What are you waiting for today in prayer? Don't give up. It is in waiting that we make room for God.
Elisabeth Elliot, in her book Keep a Quiet Heart, says,

Waiting requires patience — a willingness calmly to accept what we have or have not, where we are or where we wish we were, whomever we live or work with. To want what we don't have is impatience and mistrusr of God. Is He not in complete control of all citcumstances, events, and conditions? If some are beyond His control, He is not God. A spirit of resistance cannot wait on God. ... It is here and now that we must win our victories or suffer defeats. Spiritual victories are won in the quiet acceptance of ordinary events, which ate God's "bright servants" standing all around it. Restlessness and impatience change nothing except our peace and joy. Peace does not dwell in outward things, but in the heart prepared to wait trustfully and quietly on Him who has all things safely in His hands. Can I not then wait patiently? He will show me the way.'

This quote is powerful. It is powerful because it speaks right to my heart. I am restless and impatient. I live in a microwave culture and I want things to happen now like a job, a wife, life calling, but all these things don't happen over night. I love the part if events are beyond God's control then He is not God and so satan has really attacked me in this regard tempting me to believe that God's silence means that He is not in control or that God does not care. This is one of my biggest struggles right now to remain strong in the Lord and know He is God because at times I feel unsure if He exists. All things are safely in His hands though right now it is really hard to believe He is in control and that He cares. 



"In John 11, the gospel writer recounts for us how Jesus delayed in responding to Mary and Martha when they sent word that Lazarus was sick. In fact, He stayed away a few more days, and Lazarus died. Time had run out. But Jesus' purpose in delay was to glorify the Father.
Have you been waiting for God to answer some of your prayers, and rhe answer has not come? The situation may look hopeless from every human standpoint, but God can resurrect any dream. He can break through even when we feel it is far too late. We fail to realize that God is using the time delay for our benefit—for maturing, for purifying the heart, for refining our character. He who sees the outcome wants to do a great work through us. The same resurrection power that brought Lazarus back from the dead is at work in our lives. The Lord wants you to look to only Him for your answer. Fix your eyes upon Him and wait, knowing He is faithful. God will come through for you in His timing. "Jesus said, 'Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?'" (John 11:40)."

This has been one of the best chapters yet. I too feel like the delay means that God does not care, but Jesus was right on time and even at the scene later on with Mary and Martha, Jesus showed emotion and wept. He cares even when we cannot see it. God is able to do the impossible when everything seems so hopeless. I read about it in John 11, but right now, it is so hard to believe God can do this in my life.

"The blessing I am describing is called soaking in God's presence. The word soak means to drench, to wet thoroughly, to enter into the pores, and to be steeped in a fluid. Soaking in God's presence is drenching ourselves with God, being with Him, letting Him enter our entire life, and saturating outselves with His presence through stillness, test, and wotship. A wonderful transformation occuts as we do this.


Those who practice soaking prayer find joy in their lives. It's a time to lay your burdens at the feet of Jesus. It's a time to find rest for your soul — to be still and know that He is God. It may take a little effort to quiet your racing thoughts, but it's well worth the effort. Let Him lead you beside still waters. Jesus says in Matthew 11:28-30,
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

"We all need to learn how to quiet our busy thoughts. God can help us turn our attention upon Him. Initially your thoughts can be racing all over, but know that the Lord is with you. Similar to the traditional practice of contemplative prayer, in soaking prayer you wait for your thoughts to settle. You come with nothing to do except sit or lie in God's presence. You are learning to focus on Jesus. When your mind wanders, you learn to bring it back. As you renew your mind and spirit, you will experience a greater peace. You will see things more clearly from God's perspective."



"Soaking is a dedication: "God, this is time just for you." Soaking is an invitation: "God, do what you want to in me." Soaking is an expectation: "Thank you. Father, for what you are accomplishing as I rest in you." We come to Him like little children believing that He has good things for us. "If you then know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask Him." - Catch the Fire Ministries,   www.ctfministries.com"




TO SOAK IN GOD'S PRESENCE. Find a place without any disti s, put on some quiet music, get a journal or pen and paj
get into a comfortable position. You may even want to lie floor. A peaceful environment helps you become peaceful inside.
•           Listen to worship music. You may want to use quiet instrumental or vocal worship music. So much good soaking music is readily available (  www.soaking.net is ai excellent resource).
 •          Invite the Holy Spirit to come and soak you in His presence. Surrender your mind, body, and soul in prayer to the Holy Spirit. Humble yourself before Him. You an learning to wait upon Him.
 •          Focus on the Lord's presence. Open your heart to God. You are learning to abide in Him. You are learning to focus on Him and His presence. Wait for your thoughts settle.
 •          Rest in faith and believe that God is working within you. It isn't about what you can accomplish through you efforts; it's about what God is doing in you. Write down any thoughts He may give you. Listen carefully to His voice."

Prayer:
Father this has been a powerful chapter about waiting and being in Your presence. Delay and unanswered prayer really hurts our faith and trust in You. I feel so discouraged and hopeless at times in this season. I want to see breakthrough in my job search, in my singleness, in my ministry, and in my health. All these situations seem so hopeless. I want to learn to soak in Your presence. I cannot hear Your still small voice and can’t see that You are here with me. I want to be fully aware of Your presence and to be drenched in Your goodness.
 

Wednesday, October 10, 2012



October 2, 2012


THE   INTERCESSOR   AND   CHARACTER

The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective. - James 5:16

It is the second day of October and tomorrow is the Chinese small group. The last meeting was two weeks ago and though I was able to make it, I felt incredibly tired from lack of sleep the previous night and I felt out of place because the people there were old enough to be my grandmother. My attitude was off then and even though I would like to go I am not sure if I can. My knees have been bothering me the past week with minor relief at times. Another moment today was that I heard from my child. Not even that was able to improve my mood today. She did well on her exam and I was happy for her because this was her prayer request, and concern, but I realize that I have so little joy and love when I personally do not feel well. I want to change my attitude but it is so hard.


"How can we grow in godly character? How can the words we say and the way we live demonstrate holiness and humility? How does our character affect the way we pray? When we discover the beauty of humility and brokenness and learn how our tongue can bring grace into the lives of others, we also discover joy in the secret place that breaks through into fruitful and effective prayer.
 God puts a great price on humility of heart. It is good to be clothed with humility as with a garment. It is written, "God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble" (James 4:6). That which brings the praying soul near to God is humility of heart. That which gives wings to prayer is lowliness of mind. . . . Pride, self-esteem, and self- praise effectually shut the door of prayer. He who would come to God must approach the Lord with self hidden from his eyes. - E. M. Bounds, E. M. Bounds on Prayer1
Walking in humility is essential for those who want to touch the world through prayer. I was touched deeply by the humility I saw in the Christians in India. Now God reminds me over and over again to pray, "Lord, give me a humble heart." None of us can change the world unless we have a humble heart and walk in the very humility in which Jesus walked."

Humility is a key trait and virtue really missing today. I remember from the previous book about a young Christian who came to hear a preacher and then a pregnant woman came in and the pastor asked the young man to give up his seat and he was like but I got here first. There is a "me first" attitude especially within the young generation. I cannot say I am immune from this because I often think of my own needs before the needs of others. Yet this is how Christ modeled humility and what Paul writes in Philippians 2, considering the interests of others before our own. Young men and women simply today do not give up their seat for the elderly, the pregnant or the handicap. It just does not happen. I want to be able to consider the needs of others before myself. This is now my fifth day on the prayer network online and I hear about so many life challenges and just now begin to start praying for each person even though I don't know them, but God does and they matter to God and should matter to me. Humility is one trait that reflects that we are made in the image of God and the image of God was the topic my reflection paper was on. We are like Christ when we are humble. I can remember when I first got into the University of California and was the first of my relatives to do so. That time between my letter and my first day as a freshman were full of pride. It took only about a month when I got my first midterm back when my pride became totally gone. 12 years later as a grad student, pride came back. There is something about being a grad student that inflates the ego. I am not sure what it is. I had two very difficult professors that gave me less than desirable grades that kept me humble during my time as a grad student. I am not even sure why we can be so proud at such insignificant things.

"They don't defend themselves. They trust God to defend. "Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: 'It is mine to avenge; I will repay,' says the Lord" (Romans 12:19). They are ready to be honest about themselves. "If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:8-9).
They quickly admit they have sinned. Pride will deny that there is the possibility to sin. "Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight" (Psalm 51:4). They are ready to make restitution. "If you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift" (Matthew 5:23-24). They are convinced of their inability to serve God on their own. They realize their dependence on prayer because they know they can do nothing without God. "Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me" (Psalm 51:10).
They are able to-sejoice and weep with others. They have compassion on the broken in the world and are able to enter into their pain. "Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn" (Romans 12:15).
you want to know what a person is really like, find out makes him or her laugh and weep."

In short, a person with humility depends on God and is selfless in his attitudes and actions. These values are really seen in Jesus. I cannot say that I am humble. When I am wronged I want the individual to have something bad happen to them. I will not go so far as to plan something to repay, but the fact that I think about it, that is the hurt of the individual means that I am wanting revenge rather than to resolve it in a Godly way. We should trust God in everything. I think also of King David. When confronted about his sin, he immediately realized what he did and repented. The authenticity of the is found in Psalm 51. Sometimes I have a problem to admit wrong. I try to justify the situation. Or, the common tactic, I blame someone else for what happened. Humble people are quick to admit wrong.


"The Blessings of Brokenness. What does brokenness produce in us?
True humility. "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise" (Psalm 51:17).
Spiritual fruit. "I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds" (John 12:24). Healing. "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds" (Psalm 147:3). *   Closeness to God. "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" (Psalm 34:18)."

Four listed fruits, spiritual fruit, genuine humility, closeness to God and healing are the products of brokenness. I know that the opposite can happen when we go through moments that are really tough. Rather than closeness with God we can feel far from and forgotten by God. Instead of humility we can feel crushed and overwhelmed and totally lack strength. Rather than healing we can feel depressed and discouraged. Rather than fruit we can feel powerless and purposeless. This is how I often feel in this present season of difficulty now in my life.

"The Bible stresses that what you say is an accurate indication of what is in your heart. If your words bless and encourage others, they give evidence of a compassionate heart. If you often share the good news about Christ, you demonstrate a heart that is grateful for your own salvation. When others are in a crisis, do they know they will find peace and comfort in your words? Do you frequently and spontaneously offer prayers for others? Do your words and the manner in which you say them reveal a patient heart? All of these behaviors indicate a heart that is like the heart of the Father. - Henry and Richard Blackaby, Experiencing God. Day-by-Day
The words we use have tremendous power. The Bible says that life and death are in the power of the tongue (see Proverbs 18:21). I believe that our prayers will have more power and a greater anointing when our everyday life is filled with words that uplift and bring grace to others (see Ephesians 4:29). There is no question that a holy life is a powerful life when it comes to seeing answers to prayer. Jesus' prayers were heard because of His reverent submission (see Hebrews 5:7). Righteous living and right speech come from a right heart befote God. It is imporrant fot all of us who want to have an effective prayer life to carefully watch our speech."

Although my area of passion is to encourage others, and I am learning to do this more now in the prayer network, there are times when I use words to bring down. This is especially true in my family. Each of us have a sharp tongue and do not use words to build up. Sometimes we can be really negative and it has been like that for a while. It is important to use words that build up but it can be hard when everyone else is using words to bring down. I know more and more that encouragement is a real spiritual gift. I’ve known many who have this powerful spiritual gift. They send me random e-mails that really encourage me in my faith. It is not something found in the natural realm. Yes, we have known inspirational teachers, but I think the gift of encouragement goes much deeper.


"Our words can be kind and full of love. Our actions demonstrate love even in the midst of our enemies. We read in Galatians 5:22-23, "The ftuit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control."
The Lips of the Righteous. In Proverbs 10, we find seven characteristics of the lips of the righteous. When we refrain from critical and negative speech, we must replace it with uplifting, positive, and grace-filled words. Think about the words you speak. Are they uplifting and do they bring life to others? Ask God to help you evaluate yout speech as you read these verses:
 •          A fountain of life. "The mouth of the righteous is a fountain of life, but violence overwhelms the mouth of the wicked" (vetse 11).
 •            Discerning lips. "Wisdom is found on the lips of the discerning, but a rod is for the back of him who lacks judgment" (verse 13).
 •          Holds his tongue. "When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise" (vetse 19).
 •          Choice silver. "The tongue of the righteous is choice silver, but the heart of the wicked is of little value" (vetse 20).
 •            Nourishes many. "The lips of the righteous nourish many, but fools die fot lack of judgment" (vetse 21).
 •          Brings forth wisdom. "The mouth of the righteous brings forth wisdom, but a petverse tongue will be cut out (verse 31)."

I really see in this chapter the power of the tongue and the difference between people with Godly versus ungodly tongues. The ungodly speak discouraging, critical, nasty, and poisonous word that really hurt others. Conversely, Godly men and women use words that build up, nurish, and encourage. This chapter is all about the Godly and what it looks like and it is no wonder why their prayers are powerful because they are so close to God and His image.


"Is it truly possible to rejoice in the Lord always?
Paul says twice in Philippians 4:4 that we should do this. He knows that it's something we have to command and encourage ourselves to practice. We all struggle, and it's not fun. But Paul sets the bar high: While in prison, he rejoiced! And then he tells us to pray about everything with thanksgiving as we present our requests to God. Perhaps prayer is a key to the ability to rejoice always. It certainly is not easy to rejoice in certain circumstances of life, but we have a choice of how we will view those circumstances. God has an answer for everything, even when we don't see it through our human eyes. He knows the beginning from the end, and it's our choice if we want to link with Him or not. The world is negative and tries to squeeze us into its mold, but God has a way that we can walk through our circumstances victoriously.
Joy is a fruit of the Spirit. It is not something we can create ourselves — it comes from God. It's supernatural and persists in a deep, abiding way, even when we are in the midst of hardship. Joy is not the absence of pain or difficult circumstances. What could be harder than a Roman prison? But rejoicing always is learning to let God's Spirit fill you with His unquenchable joy, regardless of your circumstances. If you're joyful, your life becomes a testimony of Christ's lighr for a world looking desperately for hope."

Joy is totally a work of the Spirit especially joy in hard times. On most days I feel really discouraged and at times my mom says why does your face look so sad and discouraged. She asks me to smile more. This is from a woman who does not know Jesus. Sometimes I think my mom has more joy than I do. It is really difficult to be joyful always as Paul says. He was rejoicing in a Roman prison and that was nothing like the prisons we have today. He found a way, and joy like humility are key pieces to a victorious Christian life. I feel so little victory and so much defeat right now and know that joy can only come from the help of God.

"Psalm 16:11 says,
You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
There is joy in the secret place of prayer. There is joy as we choose to center our life in God and knowing Him. There is joy and breakthrough even in the darkest of circumstances when we choose to make Jesus our highest ambition, our deepest desire, and our greatest goal. Then He breaks through for us with transcending peace and supernatural understanding. Henry and Richard Blackaby remind us,


Jesus did not pray that you would be merely happy or even that you would escape grief He prayed that you would have the same joy that the Father had given Him: a divine joy, a joy that comes from a deep and unwavering relationship with the Father. It is a joy that is grounded so firmly in a relationship with God that no change in circumstances could ever shake it. This is the kind of joy that Christ is praying will be in you.3"


Joy should be found only in our relationship with God. It cannot be found in the temporary things of this world. I mean there are moments I imagine that are really awesome. I have not been to my own wedding or witnessed the birth of my child, but I imagine these are special moments that God also delights in, but these too are momentary joys. The enemy seeks to rob us of joy especially the joy we have with God and prayer during our quiet moments with Him.


"Destroyers of Joyful and Effective Prayer. The Enemy uses destroyers of effective prayer to try to diminish our power in intercession. He hates the secret place of prayer. In the book of Philippians, Paul recognizes these strategies of the Enemy and gives practical advice for how we might respond to them. It would be good for us to evaluate ourselves so that we may guard diligently against these thieves of our prayers. Here's what Paul has to say about some of the ways the Enemy uses to steal our joy and diminish our effectiveness in prayer:
•            Anxiety. "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" (4:6-7).
 •          Self-righteousness. "Be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ — the righteousness that comes ftom God and is by faith" (3:9).
Disagreements and poor relationships. "I plead with Euodia and I plead with Syntyche to agree with each other in the Lord" (4:2).
Difficult circumstances. "I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances" (4:11).
Wrong thinking. "Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable — if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—-think about such things" (4:8).
Lack of confidence. "I can do everything through him who gives me strength" (4:13).
Complaining. "Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe" (2:14-15).
Selfish ambition. "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves" (2:3).
Bad attitudes. "Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness" (2:5-7).
Pride. "Being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death — even death on a cross!" (2:8)."

I really like this list. It is like a mirror. I have problems with so many of these like lack of confidence, complaining, bad attitude, and anxiety. Paul speaks to each of these areas when it comes to attitude and prayer and our relationship with God. These are also powerful promises to hold on to as we pray and come before God.


"Don't be satisfied with a joyless life. There ought to be in every Christian a deep, settled fullness of the joy of Christ that no circumstance of life can dispel. This comes as you allow the Holy Spirit to express Himself in your life. One of the fruits of the Spirit is joy (Galatians 5:22). This joy is unlike any happiness that is produced by the world. It fills you and permeates everything you do. - Henry and Richard Blackaby, Experiencing God. Day-by-Day"


Prayer:
Father, I learn so much here about prayer and joy and humility. Trials have the ability to bring people closer to You but for me in this season it has really made me discouraged and feel like You have abandoned me. Some days when the pain is too difficult to walk, I don’t feel like praising and praying. I feel overwhelmed to the point of depression and hopelessness and tears. In this season, I don’t sense Your hope and so feel very little joy. Joy is so critical but so lacking in me. Father please help me know You are here and that You have both the ability and power to help.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012


October 1, 2012

The Intercessor and Faith




Today is the first of the Month. When there is a new month there is always the chance for a new beginning. I have prayed for breakthrough since May upon the onset of my health condition for not only this but the other impossible areas of my life that include finding a job, serving in a ministry, and marriage. This chapter draws attention to the difference between the pagan and the Christian for the Christian is a person with faith and the chapter opens with that famous verse in Hebrews:

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone wh must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly - Hebrews 11:6

Faith is not the only marker of the believer. There is also conduct and world view. One brother had gotten in a car accident and he had let us know about the situation the other brother who is not yet a believer responded with some indifference. It once shocked me to see how much uncaring and indifference the people who are not born again are. I'm sure there are loving people who are not born again, but I personally have not met any. And then when the brother came home from work he is like instantly asks my mom where is the mooncake that his girlfriend got the family. I mean it was a family gift from his girlfriend and here he was demanding it like it was for him only. I'm glad I don't eat mooncake otherwise his wrath would be directed towards me over this small insignificant mooncake. People of God share with others and they genuinely care about others. There is a major difference in the way a Christian lives. However, I cannot say that I am all that Christian either. My health condition has not been good these past couple of days. So my mood has been very down and yesterday I began having pain in my toe that was present for a couple of hours while I sat and finished my paper. Not even mooncake from my girlfriend was able to lift my mood. I think nothing this day at all could have had a positive influence on me. What is more, I was reminded of the impossibility of this relationship there being 10,000 miles that separate us at this time and I don't have the health or the finances to see her now. My last semester of grad school was so promising as God enabled me to finish very strong with every assignment and all six classes averaging nearly a 4.0 when I have never taken that many classes and never done so well. I had job interviews line up even before graduation and a week after graduation, my health condition came, the interviews did not go well, and everything at this present moment just sucks. Everything went from possible to impossible within a period of less than a month. Without faith it is impossible to please God. Right now, I have so little faith. 

"The entire staff and crew dropped whatever they were doing and quickly gathered in the main lounge. The captain urged us to pray that God would give us a safe passage through the Strait of Magellan so that we could arrive on time. Because of the seriousness of the situation, we needed prayers of faith for the impossible. We were absolutely dependent on God for our future on that vulnetable old ship. Only He could save our situation. We immediately gathered in small groups, praying fervently that God would calm the seas. Within minutes, God answered prayer: The seas became still, and the ship passed peacefully through the narrow passage.
I sat on deck at the bow of the ship with a young man, admiring the beauty of God's creation in this gorgeous part of the world. Actually, this was our first date — one we would always remember in the years after we married. During that passage through the Strait of Magellan, we saw many shipwrecks right in the midst of the natural beauty of massive rocks and clear blue seas. This was a vivid reminder of God's powerful answer to our desperate prayers. Are prayers of faith for the impossible effective? Yes! Our ship was able to reach its destination safely, and we were able to continue our conferences and evangelistic programs right on schedule. God used the situation to build our faith.
You may be asking, How can I develop my faith in God? How can I pray for the impossible in my life circumstances? How do I tap into God's unlimited power when I feel so weak? Let's discover how faith-filled ptayers are developed through delay and how we can pray with faith fot the impossible — even surrendering our weakness inro God's strong supernatural power."


I think of the disciples and Jesus on the stormy sea and when they found Jesus sleeping during the storm and they were all full of fear and woke Jesus up. He calmed the storm like it was nothing. God allowed this ship to pass through safely through the power of prayer even when they saw so many shipwrecks as they passed through. It reminds me of the exodus from Egypt while Israel pass through on dry ground and the Egyptians drowned into the sea. God products His own it appears. God brings us into storms and we often grow so worried and frantic. That is sure my natural response. Somehow, someway, He gets us through and calms the storm, but not always immediately. When He does, we know it is Him and all glory goes to Him in this impossible situation. I am right now going through a storm but it has not yet been calmed. Some days it seems pretty bad. Some days I think I am going to drown. I cannot see that He is at work and protecting me even though He is probably by my side.

"Faith does the impossible because it lets God undertake for us, and nothing is impossible for God. How great-without qualification or limitation-the power of faith isl If doubt can be banished from the heart and unbelief is made a stranger there, what we ask from God will surely come to pass. . . . Prayer throws faith on God and God on the world. Only God can move mountains, but faith and prayer move God. - E. M. Bounds. E. M. Bounds on Prayer1
Are you trusting God for something bigger than yourself, for something that only God can do? Are you stepping out of your comfort zone, beyond what is normal in your sight, asking God for things that are God-sized and not man-sized? Are you filled with the plans and purposes of God, with an anticipation of what God will do if you believe and do not give up?
This is what God wants. We need to come to Him in faith with a great expectation of meeting with Him and seeing Him answer our prayers. Let us believe that God rewards faith and those who diligently seek Him (see Hebrews 11:6). Fairh is the currency of heaven. The question we must ask is, "How can our faith be enlarged so that we have this cutrency of heaven?" One of the most significant ways is through delay.
Yet faith is often called upon to wait patiently befote God and is prepared for God's seeming delays in answering prayer. Faith does not grow disheartened because prayer is not immediately honoted. It takes God at His Word and lets Him take what time He chooses in fulfilling His purposes and in carrying on His work. There is bound to be delay and long days of waiting fot ttue faith, but faith accepts the conditions.2"

Faith takes God at His word. I read so many of God's promises and as the days go by I wonder if these promises are true anymore today and then it becomes is the Bible true and then satan really gets me to doubt His word just like he did with Eve from the beginning. When we doubt His word then we doubt who He is and His plans for us. I think once satan can get us or anyone to believe that God's word isn't true, than he has planted the seed to destroy our faith and relationship with God. Taking God at His word is the hardest thing when going through difficulties. It is easy when things are going well because we can visibly see God's blessings and God's goodness. I like the Bounds quote, God can move mountains but faith moves God. So indirectly we can see moved mountains through our prayers. I am trusting God with many things bigger than myself, things that only God can do like my health, my relationship with my girlfriend, my joblessness situation, my ministry. All these are bigger than myself and are God sized situations and concerns that only He can provide. Yet, delay causes me to weaken in faith. How do we handle the moment by moment difficulties when we don't see God's goodness in the meantime?


 "Jesus used delay in the interest of a gteater good. Look at the story of the death of Lazatus (see John 11:1-44). The faith of Mary and Martha was tested. Jesus waited; Lazarus died. This was a seemingly impossible situation. What is more hopeless than death — not only physical death but death of all dreams, plans, and hopes? If God delays in answering your prayer, wait for Him. Waiting is not being lazy or going to sleep. It is not giving up. Rather, it is activity under command — being ready for when the command comes, and doing nothing until it comes. In His own good timing, God will give the command and break through all the obstacles. He will come and will not be late.
When starting the ministry of Intercessors Arise International, I ran into many difficulties. I knew what God wanted to do, but numerous obstacles came my way. Over and over again I ran into computer problems, and over and over again I had to lay them in God's hands and pray. The Enemy fought hatd, and I finally made a decision to pray through all the obstacles and wait until God broke through. I knew in my heart that He wanted to raise up a vehicle to encourage intercession. It was a big test of my faith, a mountain that had to be conqueted, and God broke through. It was an assignment in ptayer that was too big for me but was conquerable for God."

This has been one of the most encouraging chapters I have read. What can be more impossible than death. The death of Lazarus was surely an impossible thing and Mary and Martha were surely upset that Jesus did not come through sooner. Yet Jesus came right on time, in time to provide a miracle that only He could do. When all of my interviews for working at mental health agencies serving the Chinese population failed, I felt a death of a dream. I spent nine years as an undergrad and two years as a grad student to go into social work and here I am sitting at home not finding any work. I had a strong passion to help people and right now I cannot even help myself. I love this illustration with starting this international ministry. It is a God sized task and only one where God needed to come through. So we pray through and wait through and listen and see how God may be working in our situation. We feel joy looking back just as I feel joy looking back and seeing how God came through so many times in grad school in very impossible situations.


"God answered prayer, and now my faith has been enlarged to believe Him for much greater things regarding Intercessors Arise International. I believe that the test of faith was absolutely necessary for what God wanted to do. Whatever obstacle you are facing, whatever impossibility you are praying through, don't give up. God wants to enlarge your faith through the difficulty and the delay. Believe that one day He will break through in abundance. Thank Him now for what He will do even when you don't see it. Remember, faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.
Delay is often the test and the strength of faith. How much patience is required when these times of testing come! Yet faith gathers strength by waiting and praying. Patience has its perfect work in the school of delay. In some instances, delay is of the very nature of the prayer. God has to do many things before He gives the final answer. There are things that are essential to the lasting good of the person who is requesting the favor from Him. - E. M. Bounds, E. M. Bounds on Prayer'1

I really like this passage. God wants to enlarge our faith through difficulty and delay. As I mentioned in the last section, grad school each day was an impossible thing and I felt like I was going to quit from the difficulty almost every week. You would think that my faith would enlarge from seeing God come through, but here I find myself with bigger difficulties but God hasn't changed. He is the same God that got me through grad school and He is the same God who can help me today. Many people often remind me to don't give up but this is so hard when we cannot see anything good happening. God needs to do many things before the answer. The bigger the concern, the more God needs to do. Some answered prayers are instant like finding keys but some are longer. It is these longer things that are hard to wait and trust God.

"It seemed impossible at the time, but to God all things are possible. God wants to answer prayers of faith for the impossible. Are we willing to step out into this dimension in our prayer lives?
What impossible assignments has God given you in prayer? Is it the salvation of a loved one, revival in your city or nation, healing from an illness? To you it may seem impossible (and the Devil would want you to believe that), but God loves to answer impossible prayers because He, the creator of all that is, lives in the realm of what seems impossible. He wants us to be obedient in prayer so that He can stretch our faith to the place where He dwells. In this place of faith-filled obedience, He makes the impossible possible, by His might and power alone. And He wraps His strength around our weakness, bringing our faith to a new level.
The first day at sea on this voyage was miserable for most of us, and we had three more days to endure. But God was at work realigning our lives with His, conquering in a small way the self-life so that His life could shine more brightly through, and strengthening us in faith by answering our prayers for calm seas. We all have a tendency to get discouraged at the enormity of the task before us, in the weariness of the battle when the storms of life seem overwhelming, and when we perceive our own inability to have strength or faith for what is ahead.
We must realize that we are not alone. God is powerful, and He is with us through every storm and danger in life. I once heard the story about a house that caught on fire one night and was being consumed with flames. A young boy was forced to climb out on the roof to escape. His father stood below with his arms outstretched, calling out loudly to his son, "Jump! I will catch you." The only way to save his life was to get the boy to jump. But he saw only the huge flames and black smoke and was terribly afraid. His father kept yelling frantically, "Jump! I will catch you." The boy fearfully protested, "Daddy, I can't see you. I can't see you," to which the father replied, "But I can see you, and that's all that matters."
God breaks through if we don't give up in prayer. Sometimes we feel the darkness of life just like that young boy on the roof. We can't see our way through a situation, but we pray fervenrly to God for rhe answer. We may say, "God, I can't feel Your presence. Are You with me?" And He says to us, "I can see you, and that's all that mattets. I will never leave you or forsake you. You can trust Me." We must realize that God is there and that He will catch us even though we can't see our way through. He will grant us victory stepby-step as we continue in prayer. Don't give up in prayer, because He will win the battle for you. Remember that His strength is made perfect in our weakness. Let us pray for one another that our faith may not fail. Faith honors God. He answers prayer according to our faith (see Matthew 9:29). We link our humanity to His omnipotence when we pray in faith."

The illustration of the little boy and the father is right on for me. I feel like the little boy and God both literally and figuratively is that father on the outside. He tells me to jump but all I see is the fire that is overwhelming. I can’t see God, but He’s somehow there. He sees me and that should be enough. Faith by nature of what it is is difficult. I cannot see or hear God but somehow today and right now, God is present and He is able to catch me when I jump to safety from the fire.



"God can calm the stormy seas in your personal life, family, city, and nation. He longs to do the impossible in answering the cties of intercession. Prayer is the avenue to see all needs met. Prayer and faith go together."


"Don't discount what is possible with God iPhilippians 4:13). When God gives an assignment, it is no longer an impossibility, but rather it is an absolute certainty. When God gives you a seemingly impossible task, the only thing preventing it from coming to pass is your disobedience. . . . How do you respond to assignments that seem impossible? Do you write them off as unattainable? Or do you immediately adjust your life to God's revelation, watching with anticipation to see how He will accomplish His purposes through your obedience. God wants to do the impossible through your life. - Henry and Richard Blackaby, Experiencing God, Oay-by-Day"

"As a child of God, you ought to expect God to answer your prayers. Do you ask God to do something without adjusting your life to what you are praying? If you are praying for revival, how are you preparing for its coming? If you are praying for forgiveness, are you still living with guilt? If you have asked God to provide for your needs, do you remain worried and anxious? Ask God to increase your faith, and then begin living a life that reflects absolute trust in Him. - Henry and Richard Blackaby, Experiencing God. Day-by-Day"

 "Unbelief and independence trap us. But God wants to enlarge our territory. He wants to bless us with increase, because His nature is to bless. Our lack of faith and our fear of stepping out in dependence on God are what get in the way. The truth is, the things we do for God should be outside of our own abilities; they should be evidence we are trusting in His supernatural ability. When we back away from dependence, we are not living by faith. We need to be willing to attempt things big enough that unless God steps in, we are sure to fail. Faith is like jumping out of an airplane ar fifteen thousand feet or sailing across an ocean in the oldest floating passenger ship in the world. If God doesn't catch you, you will fall or drown. But how do you know unless you jump? This is the kind of faith and dependence He is looking for in our lives.
Remember the prayer of Jabez in 1 Chronicles 4:10: "Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, 'Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain.' And God granted his request." Jabez cried out to God to enlarge his territory and bless him. He cried out for God's hand to be with him. Jabez was greatly blessed by God because he didn't let obstacles become larger than his faith. He knew the character of God and knew that God loved to bless. We, too, are made for destiny. We have a God-inspired desire to impact out world. Created for something bigger than ourselves, we are designed to touch a lost world. We long to make an impact on our land for eternity, whether it is where we work, live, or minister."

The prayer of Jabez is a controversial one in modern times because it goes against what conservative Christians are told about the prosparity gospel. I mean whenever we hear people talk about God blessing people with money, there is this spiritual alarm system that goes off. Televangelists especially have been put into question who preach this kind of Theology. However, the more I meditate on the word of God I see God’s nature is to bless. The material blessing in the Bible, like healing seems to be very absent today. We don’t see healings in the conservative church and we don’t see people who are Christian who get absurdly rich that is unless they have a high-paying job. I sometimes have a little bit of doubt because I don’t see the God of the Bible right here in my own life.



"Faith frees us to trust God who has all the resources of heaven. Why are we afraid to become dependent on a God who has unlimited resources? God has all the resources in the world. His power is limitless. He wants to bless us, but we must have faith. If we pray for God to enlarge our borders, we must depend on Him and prepare to believe for miracles that only God can bring about.
God gives us the desires of our hearts, and He wants to answer extraordinary prayers combined with extraordinary faith. He wants us to live beyond our self-imposed limits. He wants to give us favor, but many of us don't believe it. I encourage you to begin to pray big prayers, because God is able to bless.
I realize that I must demonstrate my dependence on God continually by stepping out by faith in whatever way He leads. And then I watch Him perform the miracle. Bruce Wilkinson says the following:
The most exhilarating miracles in my life have always started with a bold request to expand God's kingdom a lot. When you take little steps, you don't need God. It's when you thrust yourself in the mainstream of God's plan for this world — which are beyond our ability to

accomplish — and plead with Him, Lord, use me — give me more ministry for You — that you release miracles.6"


"What step of faith is God asking you to take today? Will you put everything into His almighty hands, adjust your life to what you are praying for, and step out by faith in whatever way He leads? When you do this, you become dependent in His dependable hands. He is waiting for your invitation to enlatge yout faith.
If seeking God's blessing is our ultimate act of worship, and asking to do more for Him is our utmost ambition, then asking for God's hand upon us is our strategic choice to sustain and continue the great things that God has begun in our lives. That's why you could call God's hand on you "the touch of greatness." You do not become great; you become dependent on the strong hand of God. Your surrendered need turns into His unlimited opportunity. And He becomes great through you. - Bruce Wilkinson, The Prayer of iabei"

Prayer:
Dear heavenly Father, I learn today about Your bigness and Your desire to bless. Yet, I can’t see it today. I face very impossible situations with my health, my long distance relationship, my joblessness situation, my lack of ministry and purpose in life. I feel lost right now and wonder where is the God we read about who gives generously and who heals and who is able to do the impossible. Right now I am really struggling in my faith. I want to see You do the impossible and provide in a big way and give me open doors for ministry and career to expand Your kingdom but right now I have so many doubts. I want to reach this city but feel so small. I want to dream God sized dreams and pray big. I want to seek Your favor and blessing so that I may give generously. Father, help me see that You are the same God in the Bible as You are today, a mighty and loving God who seeks to bless to give generously and to heal completely. Father, I desire meaning and purpose in my life, but right now I feel so lost and powerless. I need You to make this lifeless and hopeless situation of my life be raised alive by Your power.

Monday, October 8, 2012


September 30, 2012
THE   INTERCESSOR  AND   INTIMACY
Today is the last day of September and tomorrow begins a new day. Today is church day and we had a very interesting time and things to share. We picked up four children today and one was a boy named Benjamin. He was very shy and none of the girls wanted to sit with him. I felt sad for him and unsure what to make of the girls actions towards him. The girls are nine and ten and he is thirteen. Then, during dad's Sunday school, we were missing a woman who ended up in the hospital and another person had a cramp in her hand which dad helped through trigger point therapy. That reminded me of how it must have been when Jesus was teaching and then all of a sudden someone had a health issue and Jesus instantly healed them on the spot. During sharing time today one woman shared about her dad's neighbor who fell off of a ladder and ended up on life support. She had shared the previous week about the situation to request prayer. Then she shared this week that the family decided to take him off of life support. Once they pulled the plug, he should have died, but he didn't. They pulled the plug and he revived. This is totally the power of God and the power of prayer at work in this instance. I have been yearning to hear testimonies of God and prayer for a while now but never heard anything like this until today. God's power brings us into deeper faith and worship. I will totally break forth in praise as I hear more of His works in and around the world. We had a lesser miracle but still a miracle nonetheless. My dad said that I know ten times as much Bible as he does and then one of the old ladies says "God choose you". "God use you". "You should teach us". Dad then said that I taught young adults and this church does not have young adults. It is so funny cause there are times when dad says something and moments later God totally proves my dad wrong like today. There was a brother and sister who came in today in their 20s. This was so random and from God. I am the only person between 15 and 45 and now today there were two more. Plus, we have not had one visitor in the five plus months I have been there. The unfortunate thing was that no one welcomed them or talked to them other than dad and the sermon was for the children today and there was no Bible lesson at all today. It is likely they will not come back but if they do it is totally a God thing. When I got home, my bro was watching golf. He would watch golf for a total of seven hours. That took away any chance for sleep because the couch is in that room and I cannot make it up the stairs. I was super tired with next to no sleep. I felt a little frustrated that he had so much golf to watch and I had no place to lay my head. Thankfully I had my paper to finish and I turned in my first seminary paper tonight. It was on the image of God and man. I had dreamed ten years ago of attending seminary and learning about God and being with spiritually passionate brothers and sisters and here I am.   
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. -Mark 12:30
WE ALL SAT on the edge of our seats, nearly breathless. Standing before us was Corrie ten Boom, who had been sent to a concentration camp because her family protected Jewish refugees from Nazi persecution. It was my first year in Bible school, and Corrie had come to speak for our chapel service. She told about her difficult days surviving in that camp and how God sustained her day by day. At the time, I didn't know much about her, but I was immediately aware of the abiding presence of God in her life. Something was different — radiant — about her countenance as she shared how she was able to see God's grace and glory in the deepest darkness because she was so intimately acquainted with Him. She knew the price of intimacy as she spent her days in intercession in that lice-infested prison. Corrie practiced God's presence in even the gloomiest, darkest situation. She pursued His heart at a time when there was no apparent hope of escape or deliverance. Even in such a horrific place, the grace and majesty of God permeated the heart of Corrie ten Boom.
Her message was clear: Intimacy with God will help us to live victoriously in even the most difficult circumstances. But the challenge was also clear: How do we grow in intimacy with Him?"
I have always wanted to hear men and women of strong faith share and speak about their experiences. I don't know any spiritual giants personally, not that in the church there are spiritual giants and spiritual grasshoppers but there are men and women who have a deep faith that I want to learn from. Certainly, we do not grow close to God when we have everything going right. Often at times we take God for granted in those times. When I was an undergrad I was so prideful and my prayers totally had no substance. There is something special about people who are really close to God. I want to know how to live victoriously because my experience is defeat. I feel really down and discouraged most of the day.
"Knowing and loving God is our greatest privilege, and being known and loved is God's greatest pleasure.
- Rick Warren, The Purpose-Oriven Life
What a privilege to become a best friend of God! Have you grasped the reality of what this means?
As a humble cook in a seventeenth-century French monastery, Brother Lawrence was able to turn even a boring job, such as washing dishes, into an act of worship and an opportunity to build his relationship with God. He said, "The key to friendship with God is not changing what you do, but changing your attitude toward what you do. What you normally do for yourself you begin doing for God, whether it is eating, bathing, working, relaxing, or taking out the trash."1 We read in Psalm 16:11,
You have made knoivn to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
Following Brother Lawrence's example, let's realize that worship should not be so much an event as a perpetual attitude.
I once read about a man who said that he wanted to learn to pray all the time in every situation day and night. He wanted to live in constant fellowship with God and moment-by-moment companionship with Jesus. This is a holy ambition and motivates me personally to develop this kind of intimate relationship with God. When we pray, we are speaking to God, and when we meditate on God's Word, He speaks to us. We need both as we develop our friendship with God. Practicing the presence of God will give us rest and lead us into a more fruitful lifestyle. But how can we practice God's presence on a daily basis?
Use Breath Prayers. Pray a brief phrase to Jesus throughout the day that you can repeat in one breath. You may want to pray phrases such as, "You will help me," "You promise to never leave me," "I can do all things through Christ,"
I like this idea of the breath prayer. It helps us to know that God is in everything that we do. I once heard a woman that said that she changes daipers to the glory of God. Nothing then becomes mundane when we do it for God. This includes everything not just our job. We do it all for God. We invite God into all of our activities realizing He is with us in every detail. This also helps us watch carefully what we are reading or watching. What an awesome idea to be called friend of God. I think of Abraham and the relationship he had with God. I desire that kind of relationship where God interacts. Prayer, for me, and for many conservative Christians is just about us talking to God. I think the very idea that God speaks is foreign to us. I sometimes hear about listening prayer but don’t really know how to engage in listening prayer. Some say we are silent before God and He’ll speak to our thoughts. My mind tends to wander in silence.

"David was after God's heartbeat for the world. God's desire is that we pursue Him with all of our hearts, just like David did, abandoning ourselves to His purposes and plans.
Are we eager as intercessors to study the heart of God? May God help us to know the secret of such a prayer life that is moved by a passionate, sustained pursuit of the heart, mind, and will of God.
When you and I know the emotions and feelings in God's heart, we can better obey Him. We can walk obediently in His Word and live radically for Him because His love sustains us. We are able to obey God in the long term when we are linked to His power rather than our own weakness. We can live joyfully because we are living in a whole new realm. Psalm 16:11 says, "You will fill me with joy in your presence."
I like the idea of being in tune to the heard and mind of God. We do this by knowing His thoughts from His Word preserved for us. When was God angry? What grieved His heart? What did He find gladness in? God hates sin and I remember that when sin was really bad, it grieved God that He made man and so He sent a flood to destroy the entire earth. Only Noah was found to be pleasing to God and thus was saved. I think any conformity to the world grieves God and especially the culture of sin and the promotion of immorality I don’t know why so many Christians watch secular movies. What fills our thoughts and minds conforms us to it. I see how we want to interact with and be a part of the culture and so on, but at what cost in our relationship with God?

"Without understanding the love of God, it is impossible to serve Him successfully for a long time overseas. Sooner or later the weaknesses in our lives and the heaviness of ministry demands catch up with us. When we pursue God's heart, everything becomes easier because we are walking with and focusing on God. We begin to comprehend His overwhelming love for us personally and the deep pleasure He has in our fellowship with Him. This motivates us to change. Our actions and lifestyles become more Christlike because we see ourselves the way God sees us, and this impacts everything we say and do. We see the beauty of God, and then we see ourselves through His eyes. This enables us to say no to sin and grow in holiness.
Eventually the truth about God and how He loves the entire world moves into our hearts. We then respond to God from our hearts. We experience the love of God in a deeper measure. But we must realize that Satan will always attack our relationship with Christ. He knows that this is the key to all fruitfulness and spiritual victory. When we know the love of God on a deep level, we can conquer any difficulty—even sea voyages. We can face any trial because we can trust our Father to know what is best for us. He will carry us through. He knows us intimately. We are His beloved children."
When we have had a personal revelation of that love, knowing He deeply enjoys us and treasures our relationship with Him, we will be able to live and pray more effectively. The Holy Spirit will guide us in our praying and our "goings and doings." Our faith will deepen and prayer will grow from that fellowship with Him, becoming a greater joy and privilege.
We long for the assurance that God enjoys us. How few of us really know deep in our hearts that God enjoys us! How few of us know experientially that God feels our pain and knows our struggles.
He knows that we are sinners, and He has knowledge of our secrets.
He knows the dreams and intentions in our hearts.
He knows when we feel lonely and when no one understands us.
He alone understands the deep desires and longings in our hearts.
Despite our confusion and weaknesses, God loves us, enjoys us, and believes in us. He treats us with honor and walks through every day and hour with us. When we learn this truth, we are changed forever. Love begins to impact everything we do, including how we pray. We rise up with new confidence. Mike Bickle puts it this way in "The Bridal Paradigm":
The absolute strongest emotion in our being is the craving to be assured that God enjoys us. The power of feeling enjoyed. We imagine God will enjoy us when we are in heaven; we can even imagine God will enjoy us if we are spiritually mature on the earth. But the idea that He enjoys us while we are spiritually immature is unthinkable for many people.3
We long for the assurance that God enjoys us, and then we long to be captivated by God. We have a deep desire in our hearts to be excited and enthralled by the wonder and awe of who He is. We love beauty, and we long to be spiritually alive. We want to experience wonder. We are designed for it in the core of our being."
Prayer:
Father, I want to be captivated by Your beauty and majesty. I want to stand in awe of You. I want to see the power and love which You have exhibited in the past. Sadly, there are times like right now when I am unsure about Your love. Life is a bit difficult now with joblessness, health conditions, and a lack of purpose and direction. I feel lost and alone a lot now. Because of my health, I don’t get out much and feel depressed often. Father, I need Your help and I need the assurance of Your unconditional love.

Thursday, October 4, 2012


September 29, 2012
Introduction
I finished the last book yesterday. It was on the royal identity of the believer and overall it was quite encouraging. As trying to prayerfully consider what to read next, I thought about some of the issues that I have been wrestling with in the past few weeks. Many times I pray that I don't feel God's power and presence and I want a strong and vibrant faith rather than the defeat and discouragement I feel day to day. I don't experience power in prayer but really discouragement in prayer and disappointment with God. My prayer life, in very blunt terms, sucks. So, I know I have already gone through some general books on prayer, but I have not gone through any books on intercession. I am weak in this area even though I personally pray for others in church and in my family. But what does it look like to effectively pray for others? I am not sure.
(Przybylski, 2008) writes about her prayer journey as a missionary and shares these experiences. I begin today with her introduction. But along the way I write not just about the thoughts I have about the book but also about what is going on in my life especially as it relates to my faith and relationship with God. Today was a very low point. This is the second day this week where I cried. It was in the evening time just after dinner. I cannot remember a time when I cried twice in the same week. It was very difficult to walk today. For the first time dad carried the wheelchair into the house to get me to the bike path for the evening walk. I could not handle the distance from the dining room to the front door. I was going to check out the children's ministry but had to decline because I was in no condition to go anywhere tonight. The thing is that my brother got invited to a birthday party and my mom got invited to a wedding banquet leaving me home. I was suppose to visit the ministry but was in no condition to do so. I felt so depressed about everything in my life. I thought about all my failures and disappointments and sorrows. This did not help. I originally also wanted to go out for dinner since mom and bro were out for dinner. Obviously that didn't happen. Tonight, I have so much disappointment with God. For the first time, I jointed an online prayer community. For the first time, I had told my situation and how I feel and how I feel like God has forgotten me and some brothers and sisters sent me words of encouragement and it helped a little. I want to do this too, to pray for strangers in the body of Christ and send words of encouragement and so today I decided to choose one or two people to pray for during the week. So today was a woman who had an eight year relationship and she felt heartbroken. I can relate because I felt that ache when I was in college. There is no way to actually communicate with her back and forth but I shared with her that God comforts us when we are going through difficulties. I really need an opportunity to get the attention off of myself and on to helping and serving others.
Prayer is not an indifferent or a small thing. It is not a sweet, little privilege. It is a great prerogative, far-reaching in its effects. Failure to pray entails losses far beyon the person who neglects it. Prayer is not a mere episode of the Christian life. Rather, the whole of life is a preparation for and the result of prayer. E. M. Bounds, E. M. Bounds on Prayer1
THE MINISTRY OF Intercessors Arise was birthed in my heart years ago on the mission field as a young missionary trying to reach the world with the gospel of Jesus Christ. It was then that I saw the desperate need for prayer for the nations. Over the years, my passion for intercession grew. Praying in the nations over many years with Operation Mobilization on its mission ship Doulos and ministering in more than sixty countries was a privilege. I saw prayer as a vital necessity in reaching the world. I learned the blessing of both personal and corporate prayer for the lost. Intercessors Arise began the week after 9/11."
I don't understand the vital necessity of prayer. Sometimes it feels like a small thing. I guess I don't experience power in my prayer life. The whole of life is a result of prayer. This is a profound statement. How we pray and when we pray and what we pray for is a result of prayer. I don't think I fully grasp the importance of that statement. Maybe because mostly the only person I have accountability sharing with is myself and so I see no answers to my own prayers so I experience no powr in my prayer life.

"Some people have said to me, "I don't have the gift of intercession," and then have grown to be mighty prayer warriors. None of us is born a prayer hero. We become one through practice. Intercessory prayer is an extension of the ministry of Jesus through His church on earth. He works through the prayers of His people. Through intercession, we mediate between God and humans as His representatives on earth, standing between Him and a lost world.
God is calling the entire body of Christ to pray and to intercede. Jesus is our example as the greatest intercessor, and He invites us to join Him. This is both our responsibility and a wonderful privilege to partner with God as we pray. We bring people to God in prayer, asking Him to meet with them. With His authority, we enforce the victory of Calvary here on earth through our prayers. Now we must awaken to this glorious privilege."
I am certainly not gifted in prayer or intercession and need knowledge and practice in prayer and understandin how we can pray in a way that we should. I read some online prayers that seem to be written by someone with a limited understanding of prayer and God. I don't want to be like that. I want to have substance in my prayer life.

"If you want to grow in your personal prayer life and make an impact in your world through intercession, then this book is for you. God is calling each one of us to rise higher in prayer than ever before. It's time for us to meet this challenge. It's time to release God on earth through our prayers. I encourage you as you read this book to make a new commitment to steadfast, earnest prayer.
My intense hope is to see intercessors arise in the end times. The days are getting darker, the need is getting greater, and the expectation of a worldwide harvest is growing brighter. I pray that you arise to the call for prayer and intercession in your own life, whether it is for your family, your city, your nation, or the world. It is time for expansion and increase on a global scale. It is time for fervency of intercession to develop beyond anything we have ever seen or imagined. May you arise in intercession for such a time as this. May you arise in personal prayer that changes the world."
Prayer:
Father, I want to grow in my prayer life and my impact in prayer for the world. I confess that I don't see power in prayer. It seems like none of my prayers get answered. I don't experience Your power or presence. Sometimes I feel like You have forgotten me. It has been a hard time in this season and I want to grow in prayer and faith. I commit this journey to You. Please teach me to pray not empty prayers but prayers that have substance and faith.

Wednesday, October 3, 2012


September 28, 2012
Preserving the Planet

We have come now to the final chapter. Overall, it has been a good and encouraging journey. There were maybe one or two chapters that were less encouraging and more difficult to understand but the overall feeling has been a higher view of God and the high call of who we are in our royal identity. I think this book is less encouraging than the previous one, but still a good read.
Biblical: 9/10
Readable: 8/10
Inspirational:8/10
Practical:8/10
total: 82%
This book speaks more about the identity we have and our responsibility. Although there were some testimonies, it was less than the previous book. I guess I like books with an even amount of theory and illustration. This book seems more heavy on ideas than it is on practical illustration. Nevertheless, I still like the book.
There was a moment late Thursday and parts of today when I felt almost normal. I mean usually it is so hard to get up. I need to push myself up against a desk or chair because I feel twice as heavy as I am. While there were moments today when I got up with ease and felt much lighter. Also, when I walk usually I am slow and my weight feels heavy. Also, there were times when I felt much lighter and lifted my feet easier only for whatever progress to reverse as the day would go on. I end this day with overall discouragement.
"AS a royal priesthood and a holy nation, it is our privilege and k. responsibility to intercede on behalf of the world before our King. It has been said that God does nothing in the affairs of men except they pray. Prayer is the catalyst for worldwide transformation. It incites the angels, restrains the darkness, and releases nations into their destiny. It is this key to revival which builds the bridge between what should be and what will be.This book is dedicated to the purpose of revival.
The devil knows the power of prayer and cannot stop us from praying. But he is the master of deception. He tries to convince us that his destructive schemes are "Acts of God" so that the people of God will not release the arsenal of Heaven against him! Unfortunately, satan has been more successful at deceiving the saints recently than he has for decades. One of the ways he has subtly crept into our society and even the Church has been through misdirected leaders preaching the "wrath of God."
In the last decade the "Doomsday" prophets seemed to have come out of hibernation. In 1997, my own parents moved out of the San Francisco Bay area to avoid the wrath of a great earthquake prophesied to strike southern California."
My dad really buys into the wrath of God theology. He believes that earthquakes and storms are an act of God's wrath on sinful people. I too sometimes think God punishes people probably because it is hard to recognize His grace and there is far more disasters in the world than there is good which makes it easier to believe in a good God.

"The Jesus movement didn't begin with disaster nor did the Charismatic renewal.The Welsh revival had nothing to do with tragedy.The Toronto and Brownsville revivals didn't begin because of calamity.
In fact, throughout most of the Bible, disaster created quite the opposite response. In the Book of Numbers, God caused some of the leaders of Israel to be swallowed up by an earthquake. In keeping with His nature, Moses begged for mercy twice in this chapter on behalf of his people. The bitterness of the Israelites who survived, grew worse with each disaster. They blamed Moses for the loss of their family members and did everything but repent (16:23-41). In the Book of Revelation, we have the same principle. Plagues are poured out on the people, but they do not repent and instead,"blaspheme the God of heaven" (16:10-11).
We have all met people who have lost a child or a loved one in an untimely manner. Many of them go through life bitter with God over their loss. Others question the reality of a loving God when they look around and see people starving. Although God can and often does turn around a bad situation and use it for good, it is still,"the kindness of God that leads to repentance." (Rom. 2:4). It's the devil that wants to kill, steal and destroy. He is the master of twisting the Scriptures so that we allow Him a place to come in and carry out his devious plan. Remember that this is the same guy who used the Bible to try to convince Jesus to commit suicide:
Then the devil took Him into the holy city and had Him stand on the pinnacle of the temple, and said to Him, "If You are the Son of God, throw Yourself down; for it is written.
¦He will command His angels concerning You: and on their hands they will bear You up,
that You will not strike Your foot against a stone" (Matthew 4:5,6)."
I never thought of the three tempations like this. I only focused on the part where Jesus said to the devil do not put God to the test. In reality the devil was trying to get Jesus to commit suicide. The devil kills and destroys but God gives life. Many times I think disaster will bring more people to faith, but from this passage, it is not true. I guess thinking about the prodigal son and the love of the Father, I become more convinced that God's love is what draws people close to Him.

Not only is the Church preservation (salt), but also we are light. In the Book of Matthew Jesus said, "You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden" (Matt. 5:14). What does it mean to be light, and what is it that we are illuminating? We are shedding light on the nature of God, which is how He thinks and acts in the affairs of men. We are the revelation (light) of the Father and His love letter to the world. We re-present Christ to the lost.The world looks to us to understand world events through the eyes of God. When we misrepresent our Heavenly Father, the world gets a warped perspective of God.

When we communicate to the world about the God they have yet to meet, it is essential that we communicate light, life, and love. Love doesn't punish or spread fear. Our Abba Father does grieve over the sins of the world, but every time we see the heartless acts of destruction that deeply wound the heart of God, we must remember the depths of God's desire to share love.The nature of love is that it reqtiires us to be able to choose. If God took away our choice, people could only behave the way God programmed them to. Wars would cease, hunger would end, and poverty would only be an ancient memory of years gone b\r. But along with their disappearance, the desperate cry of the human heart that beats with passion for a loving relationship with the most beautiful Being in the entire universe would be gone, too.
Day after day. a loving Creator looks down on a broken planet longing for the day when the object of His affection will walk hand in hand with Him into indescribable beauty in the halls of eternity. In the meantime destruction continues, not because God is angry with man, but rather because men choose to kill, steal, and destroy.This is the fruit of those who have chosen the wrong lover (satan).

"Meanwhile, a hateful enemy is stalking a wounded and desperate people. He is seeking to paralyze us with fear and demoralize us with his arrogant boasts of destructive predications. Yet still, the future belongs to those who pray. Prayer is the bridge between what should be and what will be.The diligent prayer of a righteous people will ultimately determine the destiny of our children. Therefore it is our responsibility to leave to those yet to be born a world in revival as their inheritance. Hanging in the balance of eternity is the ultimate climax of creation—the kingdoms of this world becoming the Kingdom of our God."
Prayer:
Father, thank You for this wonderful and encouraging book. I am reminded once more of Your love and compassion for the world. Help us as Your church to be salt and light, to preserve and to be revelation of Your love and goodness to the world. The enemy comes to kill and destroy but You have come so that we may have life. I want to be a world changer who communicates love and grace and not be someone who preaches Your wrath and hell. No one really likes people who stand on street corners and does that at least not in our culture. I need an increase of faith. My faith is so small. It is nearly the end of September as I continue to pray for breakthrough but it has not yet come. Help me to know that You are still God and that You still care.